Publicado por: bulimundo | Julho 17, 2019

My Sad Self…

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My Sad Self

Sometimes when my eyes are red
I go up on top of the RCA Building
          and gaze at my world, Manhattan—
                     my buildings, streets I’ve done feats in,
                           lofts, beds, coldwater flats
—on Fifth Ave below which I also bear in mind,
          its ant cars, little yellow taxis, men
               walking the size of specks of wool—
   Panorama of the bridges, sunrise over Brooklyn machine,
          sun go down over New Jersey where I was born
             & Paterson where I played with ants—
   my later loves on 15th Street,
          my greater loves of Lower East Side,
             my once fabulous amours in the Bronx
                                        faraway—
   paths crossing in these hidden streets,
      my history summed up, my absences
             and ecstasies in Harlem—
      —sun shining down on all I own
       in one eyeblink to the horizon
               in my last eternity—
                                     matter is water.
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Sad,
      I take the elevator and go
             down, pondering,
and walk on the pavements staring into all man’s
                                           plateglass, faces,
             questioning after who loves,
      and stop, bemused
             in front of an automobile shopwindow
      standing lost in calm thought,
             traffic moving up & down 5th Avenue blocks behind me
                      waiting for a moment when …
Time to go home & cook supper & listen to
                      the romantic war news on the radio
                                     … all movement stops
& I walk in the timeless sadness of existence,
      tenderness flowing thru the buildings,
             my fingertips touching reality’s face,
      my own face streaked with tears in the mirror
             of some window—at dusk—
                                     where I have no desire—
      for bonbons—or to own the dresses or Japanese
                      lampshades of intellection—
Confused by the spectacle around me,
          Man struggling up the street
                     with packages, newspapers,
                                           ties, beautiful suits
                     toward his desire
          Man, woman, streaming over the pavements
                     red lights clocking hurried watches &
                            movements at the curb—
And all these streets leading
          so crosswise, honking, lengthily,
                            by avenues
          stalked by high buildings or crusted into slums
                            thru such halting traffic
                                           screaming cars and engines
so painfully to this
          countryside, this graveyard
                     this stillness
                                           on deathbed or mountain
          once seen
                            never regained or desired
                                           in the mind to come
where all Manhattan that I’ve seen must disappear.
New York, October 1958
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